, Car keys in hand. I pulled myself into the cab, and started the engine. I drove back to my house, leaving my old memories behind on the rocky shore.

n i was having a really bad day. I dropped the rock and went home.

I picked myself off of the ground in the present time, and walked back down the beach

woke up a few hours later, disgusted with what i did. I realized that jacob would want me to stay safe. 'Keep calm and carry on' he told me sometimes whe

spot'. I searched the beach in anguish, trying to find anything dangerous. I came across a sharp rock and tried to cut myself with it. I passed out, and

e about 45 minutes later, i drove down to the beach. I went over to mine and Jacobs spot, but it hurt to much. I moved to another spot, which is now 'my

ing into his shoulder. He patted my back, trying to comfort me. The only person that I loved left me. I had nothing to live for. When I left billy's hous

illy of lying. He told me he wasn't lying for at least 10 minutes until it sunk in. I fell to my knees and sobbed. I soon got up and hugged billy and cry

that day, and that he didn't make it. It didn't hit me at first. I just stood there, staring at Billy. I then burst out in a fit of hysteria, accusing b

would allow me to Billy's house. When i knocked on the door, Billy rolled up to the door red-eyed. He told me that Jacob was attacked by Victoria earlier

harlie that Jacob Black got hurt in a motorcycle accident on the highway. My dad might believe that, but I couldn't. I drove as fast as my ancient truck

that he was really gone from my life forever. No matter how much i wished and prayed, he would always be gone.

'the day' was the day that I heard from C

sson by now, but until 2 months ago, i still felt the absolute pain of lonliness.
It took me roughly a month of nonstop crying to finally face the facts

The same exact spot. 'The day' was when i spiraled into depression for the 3rd time sence Edward left me. You would think that I would have learned my le

unging on a beach. Most people would be freezing by now, but I was used to it. Every day, sence 'the day', i have been coming here, to the same spot.

elieve that he loved me, even when he claimed to have never loved me.
I leaned back and thought about today. It was 4 days before christmas, And i was lo

saved his life. He showed no amount of gratitude for my saving him, then he picks up and leaves again with the rest of his family. I was so arrogant to b

nd and walked back to the corner of the airport, planning on getting a taxi.
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i smiled at this memory. The memory where Edward left me. Again. After I

you are, and just get over him. He doesn't want you. None of us do.'
i felt the betraying tears slide down my face. I nodded slowly, before I turned arou

other and all, but I thought you got the message when he left you that he didn't care about you anymore. You need to stop acting like the arrogant bitch

of his family, besides Rosalie, got into their cars amd drove off. I can still remember what happened.
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'look, i am very thankful for you saving my br

to go see Edward, even if it was to save his life. I succeeded, but that was when my luck ran short.

When we got off of the plane, Edward and the rest

se cliffs. I smiled at the happiness i felt when i went home later that day, and saw Alice Cullen in my house. I remembered how nervouse and exited i was

ngly looked over to where I had dived into the dangerous waters below. It was hard to believe that it had been just over a yeat sence I jumped off of tho

, when Jacob Black told me the secrets of the Cullen family. Months later, while in my depression i jumped off of the surrounding cliffs. My eyes unwitti

I sat on the wet rocks, looking out at First Beach. I sighed at all the memories those waters held for me, both happy and sad. The first time I came here